To Forgive An Undeserving Person
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"When I called you I was feeling so discouraged and alone." ~~~ She
contacted IHNM for help on a financial need but once we were talking, a spiritual
need could
also be addressed.
"When you said maybe I'm still angry with someone, you were right." ~~~ ".
. . .some thing that I cherish to this day. You said, 'Ask God to
show you how to trust Him more.'"
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Dear Mr. Stribling, I wanted to write you and express what I'm feeling inside. The problem is that this happiness, calmness and gratitude can't be described in words. I am a mother of three children, ages 6 years, 3 years, and 1 year . My youngest son has chronic and severe asthma. He is required to be on a breathing machine six hours a day on his good days, plus we have to run a humidifier 24 hours a day for him to breath. My 3 year old has an ear infection quite frequently and is partially deaf in his right ear. He is scheduled to have a minor surgery this month to help stop the infections and we are all praying that it will restore his hearing. My six year olds' biological father keeps us in court so much that we now owe $7000.00 in legal fees and we've paid $9,000.00 on top of that. Not long ago it came to a point where I was about to lose my electricity, which meant my youngest son would lose his life-support equipment. I was at the end of my rope, getting angry and quickly losing all faith and hope. When I called you I was feeling so discouraged and alone. Dee, you took the time to talk to me and you said something that I cherish to this day. You said “Ask God to show you how to trust Him more.” It was funny, because before I called I asked God to let the next phone call be someone that can help ...and you helped. Immediately after we spoke I prayed again asking God to show me how to trust Him more and asking for forgiveness over my anger and lack of faith, not to mention sliding away from church. As soon as I said amen...the phone ran. Dee you called to say that you had been able to get my electric services extend for two weeks and that meant my child could keep his life-support system!!!!! You helped me in a lot of ways that I can never be able to repay you! You showed me I was beginning to stray from God and you helped give me the courage to repent and work to be closer to God and His gracious love again. I’ll always be grateful to you for that alone. On top of that you helped and took time to save my electricity and that meant saving my son’s life... that can never be repaid on earth or in life as it is now, only in heaven with God. There’s something I didn’t tell you I guess because I refuse to deal with it. I won’t have anything to do with my parents. My mother is into witchcraft. My father is an alcoholic. When I was 10 years old he allowed his friends to molest me, then he’d beat me. This went on until I was 13 years old. Dee when you said maybe I’m still angry with someone and haven’t forgiving them.... You were right. I’m still angry with my father and I am still hurt, but thanks to you I took it to God and He’s showing me a way to forgive him. I just wanted to say thanks and tell you how much you have meant to me and my family. If it wasn’t for you I would not have admitted my hurt and anger. I wouldn’t have sought God for His forgiveness! May God bless you....
R.S. and family
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